Beautiful Things :)

I've been trying to work on this for a while.  But I haven't gotten very far.  So I'm afraid this will have to do for now:

I love books.  I love color.  I love love.  I love joy.  And it warms my heart to think of these things, so I hope they encourage you as well.  Enjoy!

The Tale of Despereaux

"Despereaux stared at her in wonder.  The Pea, he decided, looked just like the picture of the fair maiden in the book in the library.  The princess smiled at Despereaux again, and this time, Despereaux smiled back.  And then, something incredible happened: The mouse fell in love."

"Forgiveness, reader, is, I think, something very much like hope and love, a powerful, wonderful thing.  And a ridiculous thing, too."

"'Shhh.  Is the princess beautiful?'
'The Princess Pea?'
'Yes.'
'She is lovelier beyond all imagining!'"

"But he turned before he entered [the door].  He turned and shouted to the princess.  'My name is Despereaux!'
'Despereaux?' she said.
'I honor you!' shouted Despereaux.
'I honor you' was what the knight said to the fair maiden in the story that Despereaux read every day in the book in the library.  Despereaux had muttered the phrase often to himself, but he had never before this evening had occasion to use it when speaking to someone else."

"Despereaux sighed.  He reached out and touched the words fair maiden in the book.  He traced them with his paw.  And then he put his paw to his mouth.
"Cripes." said Furlough.  "You're making a fool of yourself.  Let's go."
"I honor you,' whispered Despereaux.  "I honor you."

"The song, sir.  He was singing about the deep purple falling over sleepy garden walls."

"Despereaux marveled at his own bravery.  He admired his own defiance.  And then reader, he fainted."

Cyrano De Bergerac

"I have ten hearts!  I have a hundred arms!  I feel too strong for mere mortals, Bring Me Giants!!!"

"...I have been robbed, there are no hundred here."

Roxanne- "But even the common flower has charm."
Cyrano- "But not tonight.  Tonight I want the star!"

Tennyson

"He rose at dawn and, fired with hope,

Shot o'er the seething harbor-bar,

And reach'd the ship and caught the rope,

And whistled to the morning star." -The Sailor Boy

'Sink me the ship, Master Gunner--sink her, split her in twain!

Fall into the hands of God, not into the hands of Spain!' -The Revenge

"It was the time when lilies blow,
And Clouds are highest up in the air-
Lord Ronald brought a lilly-white doe
To give his cousin, Lady Clare...
'He does not love me for my birth,

Nor for my lands so broad and fair,

He loves me for my own true worth,

and that is well', said Lady Clare." -Lady Clare

"Willows whiten, aspens quiver,
Little breezes dusk and shiver." -The Lady of Shallot

Master and Commander

This is like, my favorite movie.  Strange because I'm pretty girly.  But it's a really good movie! lol

Doctor-"By comparison the Surprise is a somewhat aged Man-o-War. (silence) Am I not correct?"

Captain- "Would you call me an aged Man-o-War, Doctor?  The Surprise is not old; no one would call her old.  She has a bluff bow, lovely lines.  She's a fine seabird: weatherly, stiff, and fast.  Very fast if she's well handled.  No, she's not old...she's in her prime."

Captain: "Posh.  Name a shrub after me: something prickly and hard to eradicate."

Doctor- "I'm sorry, Jack. I'm doing everything I can. I know you were close to his father."
Captain- "His father would've understood. He knew the life. His mother, however..."

Good Movie :}

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xkDELa8YSqY&feature=share

Star at 3:52

:} 

Jesus, I'm Afraid

So I've been trying to learn that it is by grace I am saved.  That is something really, really, really hard for me to get.  It's just hard for me to realize nothing I do can make me go to Heaven.  It's only by faith in Jesus Christ, who died for my sins and keeps my sinful self buried never to rise again.  It hurts, and it makes me scared to realize this.  It makes me panic, searching for something to hang on to.  Some of you may not struggle with this.  Sometimes I find my self-righteous work-my-way side funny.  I don't always realize how severe it is to look at God's propitiation for sin and say "it wasn't enough".  That's severe.  It's not a lighthearted problem.

So, I am saved.  God has told me so many times through his promises that I am saved.

I just have to remember that it is by grace.

I love the song "I Cannot" by Donna Stuart.  It really grabs my attention, but it doesn't hurt.  It's comforting.  It doesn't scare me.

I have been struggling with depression alot lately.  Mostly because my very salvation depended on what I was doing, even if that was relying on grace.  But this is NOT from God and WILL NOT be from God.  It's so hard when your every decision seems important.  That's just Legalism trying to eat me up.

I've been afraid lately, too.  I think part of it is I'm afraid of myself, the evil me that thinks things so horrible.  I have to remind myself that everyone thinks these thoughts.  God is leading me out of the worst ones and the others are just part of the sinful nature and can be beaten.

I also feel lonely.  Ya, typical right?  Every female feels that way.  I have no idea who this someone is.  Honestly, if I met him now that'd be the worst case scenario.  I'm still so selfish, so unpredictable, and I don't really know who I am yet  ( ^ see above).  I'd turn into one of those clingy women who look to him as their savior.   But it doesn't help when you're still so young and you feel everything all the same.

"Oh My Dear, I'll wait for you.  Grace tonight will pull us through until the tears have left your eyes, until the fears can sleep at night, until the demons that you're scared of disappear inside, until the scale begins to crack and the weight falls from your back.  Oh My Dear, I'll keep you in my arms tonight"

You Say "Let it Go"...

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in his wonderful face
And the things of the earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of his glory and grace


O soul are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There's a light for a look at the Savior
And life more abundant and free


His word shall not fail you, He promised
Believe Him, and all will be well
Then go to a world that is dying
His perfect Salvation to tell


O soul are you weary and troubled?
No light in the darkness you see?
There's light for a look at the Savior
And life more abundant and free


...trying to remember this today